Every time when i am down i will post out without the reason, cause i don't wan anyone to know. However the things just doesn't have any solution to it. Say and solve is 2 different things! Kept on thinking is a way to make me commit suicide, forget about it is completely impossible to do. People say, to solve the problem, i have to find the root of the problem. Although i know about this simple logic, but i am just too stupid to find the root of the problem. How stupid can i be. I feel like dying, working isn't like working. Slacking all the way making me have all the time to think about the problem. I really hate this job! Too many slacking time for me, make me think a lot of stuff then accidentally injure myself. Being knocked by the jet and have a big blue black and Cut my finger by the scissor while cutting. What the hell is going on... really wish that god can give me some solution to the problem..... People all been smoking when working, some asked me to smoke with them, but i rejected. Tolerating not to smoke, but they are tempting me to! Haiz this is worst than hell byebye people! Anyway if i fail O lvl i will commit suicide then maybe i don't have to think about such a stuff le bah?