第一次爱一个人爱得那么痛苦.First time, i like someone until i'm so restless bah? Maybe i should try to like anyone anymore. I promised myself not to think, but in the end i could not stop myself from thinking. Have not been smiling for quite awhile, cause stuck at home for 3 days going 4 nothing to do, if i smile or laugh means i'm crazy already. Since i'm stuck at home i really wish to go out, but no one accompany to go. I think i am so bad until no one wants to go out with me bah? If not going out tmr i really hope my day pass fast! cause after that i will be working le i don't have to stuck at home. I really wish i would be able to go out tmr bah, No matter go bowling? Pool? swimming or anything. I don't like to be trap at home.... i writing blog for fun anyway cause i know none will read my stupid post. Love someone is not as easy as i think bah i really wish i can forget you completely but i can't. every time hear things related i will think of you. I not you don't like me, but i cannot force. I completely know who you like. Really from you i can see through everything. Not that i'm smart, but i really see what you do. See your blog i understand everything. Although it's not clear but i know. Wish you happy and all the luck. I really very mood less now, i'm sad and everything really. Although i know it for a long time but i know what i must do now. I can only hide and wish you happy. I am used to be sad, even if the weather is shiny, my heart is always raining. If i can be happy for a single day, it means either i have leave the world or i lose all my memory. Ok nothing to blog le. Bye bye all. I composing new songs, maybe can be completed by tomorrow? Okay, i really very sad:( but i don't need any asshole to pity me. If you wan pity me please get the hell of this place. Byebye i said before i have change. Those fuckers who don't believe try me. If you dare mess with me that's it for you. I am sure that you will suffer hard, you asshole!
第一次爱一个人爱得那么痛苦.
