Today woke up by all the people messages ROAR! Never mind. Then went down to Jurong east bring people to agency lor. Hmmmm so amazed that vessel or bessel both name accepted i think. He still remember me cool huh? hahahaha i think i too ugly that he remember. Maybe he's thinking Oh gosh the ugly guy is back! Went back to jurong point. Walk alone, So attracted to the BEN 10 TOY!!!!! I wish i could buy one, but don't wan later some bastard will say so childish they fucking assholes. hmmmm then eat KFC alone, and walk home from jurong point. What the Fuck! i can't imagine how far is jurong point to my house i took more than 30 mins ASSHOLE! i think i'm stupid if you are laughing you are an idiot. mama de i walk home reach about 4 plus i think. Then actually wan go down accompany people smoke smoke but damn hell going to rain but in the end never. What The Hell! plus i mean accompany doesn't mean i smoke ok! Don't wan elaborate on what i do at home cause you suckers won't care so i write until here le BYEBYE reader. To some Fuck off assholes!

第一次爱一个人爱得那么痛苦.

My Joanne Peh 入围亚洲电视大奖, if you have watch 早安你好 on 27 November, you all should see her on screen :). If you did, you are same as me hahaha i watched it when i came back from work, luckily i manage to rush back and watch it :). It's a 4 min interview on this award i will give you the youtube link to see the interview if you never watch it at all :) Do support her hahaha she will get this award de JIA YOU! The interview include If they think getting this award, is a encouragement or applying more stress? What type of character they wish to act as? What type of character the judge normally like? What type of character can be outstanding? If they will reject character if they don't like it? Basically is all this lar :) so remember to support her! hahaha she got a cheerful smile which is pretty attractive :) arhhhh! Oh yar, Who wan accompany me go down Ang Mo Kio???? next sunday i guess! HAHAHAHA JOANNE PEH WILL BE THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! together with other celebrities hosting the charity show! Who wan go with me???? i doubt none bah, nvm i will go down my own. Joanne peh! Anyway my mummy told me just now next time i need go find a wife which look like Joanne Peh, since i'm so attracted to her hahaha. Crazy mummy, like i can find myself a girl? rofl. Then she continue say, Joanne Peh is too old for me :( make me so sad, she older than me by 7 to 8 years nia i don't mind de lar :D but i think no people will like me anyway :( haizzzz. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mj8o4RsY614&feature=player_embedded this is the link to the 早安你好 when Joanne peh appear de :D do watch it, she look fantastic and gorgeous :) ok . Below another BIG THING to update!

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I realize i need to change. Maybe i will be someone different le bah. I no longer have treasure le, maybe being a meaningless is better le (: i don't just predict and i know everything that is around me. So i know i have to give up, change my character is better bah. Being straight forward is better than turning loops bah. So now i hate you i will say i hate you, i like you i will say i like you. i won't think anymore le. Even if this will hurt anyone. Hiding truth is so tiring. Maybe i will like this character le bah. Me kelvin Ang Zhi Jian from today onward will be a totally different person. I don't need people around me, don't need any more friend to help, Everything i will solved it myself. A chinese old saying qiu ren bu ru qiu ji. Beg yourself is better than beg other people. I not so dumb, to let people use anymore. I not so immature to believe in everything. I grow up le, i must be cruel to everything. BYEBYE Suckers.

Even the smartest brain doesn't want to know some of the truth.

I really hate this. My life is saying bye bye now. Being alone maybe is not as scary as i think it might be bah. I seen through a lot of things. I know that i should not be so dumb. Something can be shown by simple type of sign which is placed in. I can all see through. I hate my nature of accurate prediction in something which i guess. I can feel the sense and everything. I know when you are lying when you are real. I know when you are sad and when you are truthfully happy. I know that wood and fire can never be mixed together. This is all i know, but i hate most of myself. I hate myself for not being to help. I hate myself for being a failure. I hate myself to not able to protect the one i love. I hate myself for not able to be myself. I hate myself to fail to smile truthfully. I hate myself for being a bad guy. I hate myself for everything i do. I failed to be a good child. I failed to be a good student. I failed to be a good guy. I failed to make everyone smile. I failed to win the heart. I failed to get good grades. I failed to have good friends. I failed for everything. I'm a failure in my life. Yes! like you can see i'm a failure. I believe many people can't wait to see me like this. I know i'm a failure. I can do anything. Math genius like most of you say, I PUKE! Math really sucks my life, The things i hate the most is math and myself. i rather don't know 1+1=2. When i'm down i can never find someone who can tell. Never! cause i know i'm irritating so most of you doesn't like me. So i kept it to myself. Somethings when i say i will changed topic cause i know you all don't care about it. But i really wish i could have someone who will listen to me fully. Someone that i trust i can tell to. Physically fine is not everything, emotions is something which you all can't see. God is unfair everyone knows, But i don't like to have such treatment. I very tired already.... really very tired... so tired that i wan to just close my eye and don't care about anything. haiz maybe bad guy should have such treatment bah. Bye bye everyone. I won't live long i expect.... bye

I DON'T LIKE THIS FEELING!

Going to work soon so have a quick post ok? :)

等一下，我就要去做工了！
HAHAHA later on i would be going to work at around 10.30 so 9 plus i would have to leave my house! around 6 i would need to sleep later on 5.30 have my lunch hahaha. Feeling so excited to work night shift, however i am afraid that i would not be able to adapt to not sleep lar, scare that i will dose off. Anyway i would do my best and finish the work. see if i can test myself yo 'tahan' until 8 in the morning hahaha and of course would be reaching home around 9or10 in the morning so i would be super tired. Eat breakfast bath and sleep immediately :) HAHAHAHA! I feel like i am living in America just that my day is night and night is day! So complicated right? never mind! Ok nothing to blog for today actually! ByeBye~

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No picture today hahahaha now is 1am in the morning and i'm missing .... . I'm mad anyway. Been watching 終極三國 for this few days. Too bored nowadays. People all went overseas, i have no body to talk to le. Even though now i seldom message. Prom night is coming in a few days time, can gather with everyone is a fortune. Maybe it will be the second last time i seeing most of them and maybe.... hmmm whatever i believe they also don't mind. Keep watching the show i don't know why my heart is feeling sharp pain and when listen to some songs, my heart is also aching. I don't like this feeling, Why am i feeling such things? Been mood less at home nowadays ever since that day. I don't know why i just cannot be happy, even when you see my smile i was faking it out. I really don't understand why i cannot figure it out. I am a bad bad bad guy! 是坏人. But shouldn't bad guy be emotionless? then why can i still feel such pain? Mum said i changed a lot, which i don't know which part of me had changed. Maybe i really changed just that i didn't notice? Is it because of the change which take away my smile? Or it's the pain which leads to my change? I don't know. Who can tell me the answer? The pain would it disappear? i doubt so cause it's hurting more and more... okay nothing more to post. Don't have to worry, or i could say no one will worry... BYEBYE!

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